October 15th is infant and pregnancy loss awareness day. Almost 2 years ago we had a little baby that was in my belly for a month and a half, go to sleep and wake up in heaven. One in four women, this effects. Whether it is miscarriage or stillborn, there is someone every day facing this.
Loss of pregnancy and a loss of child that is in your belly is not a super popular conversation to have with people. You always think it will never happen to you. That's how I was. Just a few months before I miscarried my baby, someone I was close to went through it and I remember thinking that would be the hardest thing ever! Well lo and behold a few months later it happened to me and the pain that I could only imagine that she was feeling, was 1 million times worse whenever I was grieving for my baby while having to feel the physical pain of my body getting rid of and rejecting something that I wanted so bad to keep. Everybody's situation is different and everybody loses a baby at different points, but regardless a baby is a person just like you are. They matter and they make an impact on people's lives. I still have people to this day tell me that my baby has made an impact on their life. I don't think there's anything in the world sweeter to hear then that right there. To know that my little baby's heart beat only for a few weeks, it was never seen by anyone, never had a baby shower, never had a funeral, never had a first birthday ... That my little baby who is in heaven made an impact on somebody's life. We named that little baby August Shalom. August because that's when I was supposed to be do with that baby and shalom means peace. God gave me great peace during that personal trial.
I want anyone who is reading this to know that if you have ever went through a loss or perhaps you are going through one, you are not alone and there are people out there who care, who love you and your baby and want to grieve with you and want to pray with you.
Father, I ask that you would be with all of those who have lost a baby or who are in the process right now who may have stumbled across my blog. I ask you that you would give them a supernatural peace during this trial in their life. I ask you Lord that you would wrap your arms of love around them and let them feel comfort that only You can give. Thank you for being the Lord of my life and my very best friend. Thank you for saving my soul by your amazing grace! Thank you for making salvation something so simple that a child can understand it. Thank you for holding my little baby for nearly 2 years now. I love you Jesus and I thank you for all of the blessings in our life. We can't wait to see our babies soon and we thank you for watching over them until we are able to be there with them as well. In the mighty name of Jesus we pray, amen.
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