I want to start off by saying that this was an amazing day.
True redemption took place at the church today.
Grant preached with the Lord's help.
It was spectacular.
He's 100% anointed.
He's 100% real.
He's 100% sincere.
He gave the invitation.
My grandpa, who has struggled with alcohol most of his life, committed his whole life to God today.
PRAISE THE LORD.
I have always had a high respect for my grandpa.
As a kid, he would always do special little things for me.
And when he says he loves me on the phone before he hangs up, I can tell he means it from the bottom of his heart.
Today though, when I saw him stand up and walk down there to pray, he became a mighty hero of mine.
My dad was an alcoholic until I was 12. I am very blessed he got saved.
I know people personally, one of them is very close to me, and her dad is still an alcoholic.
She is gone and married, but her parents' marriage has nearly ended thanks to alcohol.
Thirty years of marriage is being finalized in divorce.
Her dad missed her graduation, along with many other special events.
All thanks to alcohol.
That being said, I don't know what it's like to have a dad who is still an alcoholic and bound by the poison.
But I do know what it's like to have a dad who is set free.
I want to tell you that God is working on your loved one.
He will save them.
They will come to him.
I don't know when.
But I do know God comes right on time.
So don't lose hope.
Don't quite praying.
Let the Lord hold your hand during this wait.
During this trial.
Rest in his peace.
REST.
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As many of you know, I had a miscarriage six weeks ago.
It is still hard at times.
I think of how far along I would be now.
I have a handful of close friends who are pregnant.
I know another handful who are pregnant, but I don't talk to them or see them on a regular basis.
I know a handful of people who want a second or third child so badly.
Then, I know a few who don't have a single baby.
One lady I know of, she recently went through the same battle that I did.
She has no children and her and her husband have tried for several years.
She fell pregnant about a month ago, then lost the baby.
She was devastated, but I am amazed by watching how high she holds her head.
I don't want to make her problem seem way harder then mine, but I do think she probably feels a
different level of hurt caused by a void she has. I have a healthy little girl who will be
three this fall.
She has no baby.
(Here on earth.)
YET.
And you will be an amazing mom, sweet friend.
I have another friend, who is so special and dear to my heart.
Her and her husband have tried for a year and a half.
And tried and tried and tried.
They have fasted, prayed, given up things that nobody else knows about, and they have asked God
"Please give us a child."
I know this couple personally and I know there would be no finer parents than the two of them.
I have prayed and prayed for this couple.
Literally more than I have prayed for myself.
I want them to be parents so very bad.
I believe they will be.
In God's amazing will, there is a baby in their future.
It says in the Bible, that we are to trust God. Believe he will work out everything in our life if we
serve Him.
Yes, sometimes His timing and His will isn't exactly what we dreamt of.
For instance.
I thought I was going to be the first ever female NFL coach.
Ya.
Obviously that wasn't God's will for my life.
That was kind of a no brainer example. But in all seriousness, sometimes God's will is ten million
times better than anything we could conjure up in our little pea sized brains.
This was God's will for my life.
I got saved at 17.
I got married at 19.
I had a daughter at 22.
I had a miscarriage at 25.
I stay at home each and every day, loving, caring, and raising my daughter.
I believe that is God's will for my life.
To be the best Christian, wife and mom possible.
Sure, I could work, just as I did until I was 9 months pregnant and we could have a little extra cash.
We could go on some extra vacations.
Or just a vacation.
:)
But, I feel it is my job and responsibility to raise my own kid.
That isn't God's will for some women, I know that.
But it is for me.
And I love it.
I wake up each day and try to find a way to make Raylea excited about an activity we will
do that day.
Even if it's laying on our backs on the carpet, looking up at the ceiling, making up animals and
faces and "stars" we see.
Or coloring, doing flashcards and puzzles as we just finished doing.
A zoo trip.
Chuck E Cheese. (her preference...)
Mixing the batter and licking it off of the spoon.
Or sitting and singing songs.
I want to make my husband happy too.
I haven't probably always done that.
Sure I have always been faithful in every way, I have prayed for him, prayed over him,
remembered his birthday and our anniversary...
But I have recently discovered that I am failing in life if I am ever putting anything at all over him.
God.
Grant.
Raylea.
That is the order of priorities in my life.
Sure, Raylea requires more attention than the top two, and she depends on me probably more, but
I am supposed to focus on God first.
He has shown areas in which I can be a better wife and friend to Grant.
He deserves the best.
He really does.
So does little Raylea.
She has a heart for Jesus already and I feel I am responsible and so is Grant for instilling God and
the Word into her at this early age.
How I talk, the shows we watch, the music we listen to... they should all reflect Christ.
Not the world.
I have kind of jumped from one subject to the other, but that is why I titled this what it is titled...
thoughts from the heart.
BE BLESSED.
and remember....
Rest in His peace.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
As many of you know, I had a miscarriage six weeks ago.
It is still hard at times.
I think of how far along I would be now.
I have a handful of close friends who are pregnant.
I know another handful who are pregnant, but I don't talk to them or see them on a regular basis.
I know a handful of people who want a second or third child so badly.
Then, I know a few who don't have a single baby.
One lady I know of, she recently went through the same battle that I did.
She has no children and her and her husband have tried for several years.
She fell pregnant about a month ago, then lost the baby.
She was devastated, but I am amazed by watching how high she holds her head.
I don't want to make her problem seem way harder then mine, but I do think she probably feels a
different level of hurt caused by a void she has. I have a healthy little girl who will be
three this fall.
She has no baby.
(Here on earth.)
YET.
And you will be an amazing mom, sweet friend.
I have another friend, who is so special and dear to my heart.
Her and her husband have tried for a year and a half.
And tried and tried and tried.
They have fasted, prayed, given up things that nobody else knows about, and they have asked God
"Please give us a child."
I know this couple personally and I know there would be no finer parents than the two of them.
I have prayed and prayed for this couple.
Literally more than I have prayed for myself.
I want them to be parents so very bad.
I believe they will be.
In God's amazing will, there is a baby in their future.
It says in the Bible, that we are to trust God. Believe he will work out everything in our life if we
serve Him.
Yes, sometimes His timing and His will isn't exactly what we dreamt of.
For instance.
I thought I was going to be the first ever female NFL coach.
Ya.
Obviously that wasn't God's will for my life.
That was kind of a no brainer example. But in all seriousness, sometimes God's will is ten million
times better than anything we could conjure up in our little pea sized brains.
This was God's will for my life.
I got saved at 17.
I got married at 19.
I had a daughter at 22.
I had a miscarriage at 25.
I stay at home each and every day, loving, caring, and raising my daughter.
I believe that is God's will for my life.
To be the best Christian, wife and mom possible.
Sure, I could work, just as I did until I was 9 months pregnant and we could have a little extra cash.
We could go on some extra vacations.
Or just a vacation.
:)
But, I feel it is my job and responsibility to raise my own kid.
That isn't God's will for some women, I know that.
But it is for me.
And I love it.
I wake up each day and try to find a way to make Raylea excited about an activity we will
do that day.
Even if it's laying on our backs on the carpet, looking up at the ceiling, making up animals and
faces and "stars" we see.
Or coloring, doing flashcards and puzzles as we just finished doing.
A zoo trip.
Chuck E Cheese. (her preference...)
Mixing the batter and licking it off of the spoon.
Or sitting and singing songs.
I want to make my husband happy too.
I haven't probably always done that.
Sure I have always been faithful in every way, I have prayed for him, prayed over him,
remembered his birthday and our anniversary...
But I have recently discovered that I am failing in life if I am ever putting anything at all over him.
God.
Grant.
Raylea.
That is the order of priorities in my life.
Sure, Raylea requires more attention than the top two, and she depends on me probably more, but
I am supposed to focus on God first.
He has shown areas in which I can be a better wife and friend to Grant.
He deserves the best.
He really does.
So does little Raylea.
She has a heart for Jesus already and I feel I am responsible and so is Grant for instilling God and
the Word into her at this early age.
How I talk, the shows we watch, the music we listen to... they should all reflect Christ.
Not the world.
I have kind of jumped from one subject to the other, but that is why I titled this what it is titled...
thoughts from the heart.
BE BLESSED.
and remember....
Rest in His peace.
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